Friendship... still!

I had to repost this, it still applies. (they share meals)

for Joni and family

Form follows function.

I exist in the now.

The future uncertain,

The past pains me how?

I love all my memories

But would blur out a few

Loving fully, caring deeply

And once there were two.

And yet those who

Depend on me for life

Still bring me much joy

And center MY life.

If not for those

Humble they be

I would not be here

I’d elsewise be free.

I treasure family

Friends and successes

I exchew the large

Both wrong and excess(es).

But greyer I find

As I understand some

I welcome your presence(s)

On the journey we’re on.

So this year is starting

Both troubled and new

With wiser heads seeing

I trust that they do.

I wish you well

My love sent out

To family and friends

Both local and out…

May the ‘n oughts be forgotton

The pains may they fade

The world through new eyes

Be new’ly remade.

(on this day, January 2010)

Alas, the new year approaches and...

I must be going. It is with mixed emotion; I've spent the last week with my sister, my mom and various friends of my sister's circle. She's well regarded and loved; which is one trademark of our family that I share a portion thereof. More specificially I have friends...

There is no better feeling (emotional) than that bond with siblings and relatives when properly nourished over a lifetime. At least, if one is fortunate enough to have the requisite good memories required. (There are those... who unfortunately miss out on this; for one reason or another).

So I will leave Jocelyn, Mom, Molly, Bodie, Sadie and Elliot to their New Years planning and festivities; and return to that center of self-awareness and sometime loathing that the general populace calls Los Angeles.

So be it...

Begins anew a new year. Maybe I will get a job?

One can hope.

May your holiday and New Year be bright and of positive note. may ALL of your memories be worth remembering, retelling and savoring later.

(so I'm an optimist... or is that a pessimist?)

Happy New Year to one and all.

It is a wonderful life...

Just got finished watching James Stewart and Donna Reed with my family. Mom, mom's friend..., my sister Jocelyn, her friend Susie... and sister's three dogs. (A Christmas time tradition)...

I am once again reminded how rich our life is; even when everything is crashing down.

I hope I can keep that thought in the coming days.

perhaps.

School is out...happy Holidays

Hmm... an entire month without posts. Must be a sign...

Finished CSUN finals; turned in all projects (except the one that the other guys are still working on); and getting ready to visit my Sister in Portland, OR.

Now, just got to find work...

Credit Cards --- Get your deal here... RIGHT! (bs)

So I get this call from "Jennifer James" of Citibank/Platinum Card "Protection". They want to send me a "package" to review (which by the way means I have to sign up for!) that will only cost me $0.85 per month of $100 of balance. -0- I decline (I can actually do the math) and she gets really indignant... "why wouldn't I want to have "Protection".

what do I want to be when I grow up?

In school, struggling to keep myself well above "average" and having a interesting time competing; because the kids, they really are smart... and I'm feeling my age.

But, the bigger question, is how the hell do I pay for this adventure? It's not like I'm made of money, and rescuing cats and damsels in distress has taken all the starch out of my sails; more to the point, non-payment of funds has really screwed the situation. The worst part; I knew it going in... and did the damm thing anyway.

Mea culpa.

So now what...

I'm either unemployable (judging from my recent track record) but make a good consultant; except no-one is hiring... or I'm even worse as a consultant/marketeer than I am as an employee? It's a depressing concept.

I don't think so, but other opinions may matter. As I said... there's evidence.

But, between the various folk of good intent (but lousy financial responsibility); and the economy...

I'm feeling very Wile E. Coyote right now... just about the time the lonnng whistle down starts.