overwhelmed

Today I got the call from my veterinarian that I have been dreading.

In order to treat Taffy's cancer, the surgery to remove the sites would include removing the leg. The question is... is he strong enough and flexible enough to get through it; or am I just prolonging his suffering. Up till now he's had a pretty good run; but the antibiotics are not enough to clear up the infection and the cancer medicines themselves suppress some of the immune response, making the situation worse. He has been a real fighter, being cuddly and even playful (string chasing) even when I know he's not up to par... but it's a lot to ask; and I don't have an easy answer.

If I don't have the surgery, he's whole but not here for long; if I do... he might not have any more issues... but no one can call it for certain. And nobody can give me the answer.

(loud meeow) oops -- he's here for his dinner, see you later.