Some times you just have to cry

About a month ago, I noticed that one of my cats had something weird about her paw.  It was pink and somewhat granular, and didn't look right.

I ignored it then.  A couple weeks ago, she got into an altercation with one of the other cats (the new Tom) in my house; and suddenly she had a open sore on her forehead.  It wasn't healing fast, so I put antibiotic on it (ever try to spread ointment on a cat?), and she would wash it off; which would re-open the sore and make it bleed again.

So I stopped, and waited a couple weeks.  It's still there, but I noticed that it looks like the couple toes on her right-rear foot have this pink mass which looks like a "burn" for lack of a better description.

So, thinking back... I'm worried because it presents similar to a cancer condition that I have seen before (Mr Taffy), and I'm now worried.

I did some google-searching; and I'm now fearful that it *is* a cancer, and whether benign or malignant remains to be seen.  I contacted my veterinarian (who is out of the country this week) and will have to figure out what to do next.

But, I'm pretty broke (economically challenged) and not currently funded for this sort of thing.  Last time, Mr Taffy cost me about $18,000 and I bought him about 2 years.  I'm not setup to do that again, and I'm just about in tears.

I wanted to outlive my cats, but I didn't want them to go early.  And Leiah  (and her brother Luke) are two of the sweetest Russian Blues I have had the privileged to know.

Dammit.