And dare I say it...?

I have a job. A Gig. A place to go where they pay me money.

At least... until they either find out what a fraud I really am... (hah!)

or...

something else happens.

But, what the hell. 6 weeks of EMPLOYMENT!

(cheers from the balcony; mostly creditors)

YAY.

IT's Sunday...

We all need some humor, should I say more?

see more There I Fixed It

lets see if I make sense...

So, Thursday was my mother's birthday. She is now 90 years old. Born, January 1920... and still maintaining her faculties. There's hope, even if my dad went at 67 from heart disease. (he smoked, but in addition had a bad heart valve, which is genetic).

I dropped a Math class because I wasn't going to do well on the first test, because it would probably affect my GPA, and CSUN wouldn't accept the grade anyway (too many repeats) ... math is my kryptonite. And, they wanted an additional $846 in tuition if I took it...

It's not like I'm made of money or anything like that. After almost two years out; I can say pretty equivocally that I'm broke. The yoyo string is about played out, and I'm just about done. That isn't exactly the place I want to be; and isn't particularly good for my morale.

Intersting thing, drink scotch and get weepy / depressed. Drink cheap sake and just get dizzy. Not sure it's an epiphany or what. But, without steady work; and the last guy I did two weeks for didn't pay up... not sure if it's me or the situation; but suspect me...

And the bills, they keep on coming...

Hati

Some quick facts:

There are bogus charities out there; so be careful, either research them before donating or make damm sure that they are who they say they are...

1. A review site for Legitimate charities: http://www.charitynavigator.org/

2. Established for the Haiti disaster: http://www.clintonbushhaitifund.org/

3. Be Careful Of Email Solicitations!!!

Failures haunt, anger provides, mistakes made

So I went to see a group of friends play both last night and tonight. Once again a wonderful evening; and yet I manage to spoil the ending (tonight) by upsetting the one person I really want to impress. Not because it's going anywhere (it isn't), but because I hit the same damm trigger as last time; and I know better. And the worst part, she's upset with me... and I'm upset with me for screwing up.

There just isn't a redeeming quality... I just have to stay in the background, where I don't try to be "too helpful". Every damm time.

Didn't completely ruin the evening; but came close.

sometimes people don't know I cook...

And yes, it's simple fare...

Yesterday… had salad, soup, grilled zuccinni and burger (pictured) – almost forgot to shoot it… was hungry.

Today…
Just got the urge for viet spring rolls, and went and brought shrimp. Had everything else, glass noodle, shredded some lettuce, scallions, Korean radish (which I forgot to put in)
Cilantro and parsley. Made the simple fish sauce, lime juice, chili paste, vinegar and sugar.

They still look like crap, but they taste good.

(except next time I de-shell the shrimp). Too crunchy.

of cats and kings

Pippi is still with us. I look at her, all 4 lbs and 12 ounces, and keep hoping as she fluctuates up and down. I cannot figure a dish that she will eat predictably, nor can I guarentee success if I get her pills down her throat. But, she still purrs and cuddles, and I always wake with her trying to get closer; so I haven't given up.

She gets all the treats she wants, and anything else I can get her to munch on. All the love and clean boxes she wants, and yet... I hold to the vain hope that she will get *better*. But, for now... she's still here. And that's enough.