Lexy
Born March 1997,
became part of R's family March 1999
Laid gently down to sleep around 9:40 am on March 18, 2014
I"m going to cry later.
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Once again into the breech. Job hunting blues.
Just for once, I'd like to have steady work... where I'm not constantly looking for the next gig.
Where what I do gets compensated properly (or at least better), and I have a chance to catch up on bills.
Just once...
Where what I do gets compensated properly (or at least better), and I have a chance to catch up on bills.
Just once...
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
and more...
One of the beauties of dealing with addiction.
http://www.non-benzodiazepines.org.uk/clonazepam.html
and
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Benzodiazepine_withdrawal_syndrome
yay.
http://www.non-benzodiazepines.org.uk/clonazepam.html
and
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Benzodiazepine_withdrawal_syndrome
yay.
Sunday, November 3, 2013
more fun with "R"
So, "R"... she gets out... charges dropped. The guy who dragged her, choked her, hit her (I've seen the black eye)... is out on bail and confused. Maybe he doesn't remember? Alcohol and drugs can do that... I am not sure what's what there. Police report seems to bear out her story.
She cannot go back where she was assaulted, and is now without a place to crash. There's a congress critter type who says "even if they didn't deserve, it... (regarding rape)", but I'm not going there. IT's just wrong. Period. Come after me with a gun, a knife, large scissors... and I might feel the need to defend myself. But verbal abuse? You've got to be out of your mind. Not for anyone am I going to lose my temper like this fool.
She gets a summons to a court-date for custody of her kids, and no-one bothered to give her a heads-up... and... the court finds her unfit to care for her kids. Which sucks.
So the usual restraining order bull to keep the guy away, and she goes to meetings... comes home and gets wound up (sp?) telling me it's my fault. What?
So, long story short... she gets abusive; I tell her she has to go to her car if she's not going to cool off... and she demands to be allowed to watch a DVD of her choosing. I say "no" unless she calms down... which doesn't get heard, and she gets more and more strident.
I repeat the request to chill, or she goes outside... and she informs me that she's not going anywhere, she's a resident. I call a California licensed therapist, who spent her career placing kids (I think) for the county... and get told that "She" is out of control, (based upon the ranting which therapist can hear in the background)... and tells me to call PET for an intervention.
(That means cops. Again).
"R" gets even more upset, and leaves before police arrive .... and they cannot find her.
Yay. I should have just let her watch tv.
She cannot go back where she was assaulted, and is now without a place to crash. There's a congress critter type who says "even if they didn't deserve, it... (regarding rape)", but I'm not going there. IT's just wrong. Period. Come after me with a gun, a knife, large scissors... and I might feel the need to defend myself. But verbal abuse? You've got to be out of your mind. Not for anyone am I going to lose my temper like this fool.
She gets a summons to a court-date for custody of her kids, and no-one bothered to give her a heads-up... and... the court finds her unfit to care for her kids. Which sucks.
So the usual restraining order bull to keep the guy away, and she goes to meetings... comes home and gets wound up (sp?) telling me it's my fault. What?
So, long story short... she gets abusive; I tell her she has to go to her car if she's not going to cool off... and she demands to be allowed to watch a DVD of her choosing. I say "no" unless she calms down... which doesn't get heard, and she gets more and more strident.
I repeat the request to chill, or she goes outside... and she informs me that she's not going anywhere, she's a resident. I call a California licensed therapist, who spent her career placing kids (I think) for the county... and get told that "She" is out of control, (based upon the ranting which therapist can hear in the background)... and tells me to call PET for an intervention.
(That means cops. Again).
"R" gets even more upset, and leaves before police arrive .... and they cannot find her.
Yay. I should have just let her watch tv.
Monday, October 28, 2013
273.5 a -- the fun continues.
Friday, I got a frantic call from my friend/ex-gf...
She got into it with her roommate(s). Not me. (yay).
She texted me "Emergency". I texted back "Call 911", because I've already been dragged through the drama. Turns out she wasn't kidding.
Police were called, and she and he... were both arrested. Kids went to DCFS
Now. I feel guilty. Not very guilty, I didn't create the situation; but I didn't help, either.
ALL my friends have said "dump this person" and run away quickly.
But, how do you help a troubled person otherwise?
The state of california doesn't. They turf the mentally-ill downtown by skid row, and roust them from anywhere they camp...
I cannot bail her out, it's too much money to risk. Maybe if I wasn't in debt ...
and I feel terrible for the kids.
She got into it with her roommate(s). Not me. (yay).
She texted me "Emergency". I texted back "Call 911", because I've already been dragged through the drama. Turns out she wasn't kidding.
Police were called, and she and he... were both arrested. Kids went to DCFS
Now. I feel guilty. Not very guilty, I didn't create the situation; but I didn't help, either.
ALL my friends have said "dump this person" and run away quickly.
But, how do you help a troubled person otherwise?
The state of california doesn't. They turf the mentally-ill downtown by skid row, and roust them from anywhere they camp...
I cannot bail her out, it's too much money to risk. Maybe if I wasn't in debt ...
and I feel terrible for the kids.
Thursday, September 5, 2013
And as summer ends... so does work, renters and the "GF".
I just should expect it...
The company that employs most of my time, is going to fold up. Or, at least that is what we think this week.
The downstairs roommate, faced with the challenge of paying the rest of the current month's rent, and providing next month... decided he would do MUCH better closer to work; and moved out in such a hurry that he left his food behind... I guess he thought that there would be confrontation or something...?
I vehemently broke up with the dating object, bed partner, GF who can't keep it together long enough to have a discussion. IT's all my fault... so now she's not talking to me. Yay.
I won't let her move in if she is going to go off on me; that's not acceptable. And, she cannot (will not?) control herself and I won't allow that level of discord. I haven't really lost my temper in 20 years, and I'm not going to start now. I just don't like being screamed at.
And it's hot...
The company that employs most of my time, is going to fold up. Or, at least that is what we think this week.
The downstairs roommate, faced with the challenge of paying the rest of the current month's rent, and providing next month... decided he would do MUCH better closer to work; and moved out in such a hurry that he left his food behind... I guess he thought that there would be confrontation or something...?
I vehemently broke up with the dating object, bed partner, GF who can't keep it together long enough to have a discussion. IT's all my fault... so now she's not talking to me. Yay.
I won't let her move in if she is going to go off on me; that's not acceptable. And, she cannot (will not?) control herself and I won't allow that level of discord. I haven't really lost my temper in 20 years, and I'm not going to start now. I just don't like being screamed at.
And it's hot...
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Brewer's Yeast when Sometimes, a good idea goes bad...
So, one of my roommate/friends had a bright idea.
He's taking Brewer's Yeast as a dietary supplement. Well, he's inventive and found that the pet food supply houses (Red Barn, et al) stock it in larger quantity and at a much cheaper price; about half or less of the cost of the regular human-consumable variety.
He calls the manufacturer and finds out that the stuff is made to acceptable clean standards (meaning that it's not certified, but prepared in a way that isn't immediately objectionable)...
So, off he goes and buys about four (4) containers of the stuff.
Brewers Yeast, 2 Lb (Animed) (001019)
- Brand: Animed
- Health and Safety Type: Vitamins and Supplements
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Yeast
Brewers Yeast, 2 Lb (Animed) (001019)
Rich source of the b-complex vitamins, protein, and minerals, particularly chromium.Supplies all the essential amino acids and chromium for a pets diet.Used as an aid to good health and development in pets of all ages.100% natural source of high quality vitamins.Natural source of all the essential amino acids.Brewers Yeast Powder Amino Acids/Chromium.
He was very proud of his new cost-saving health measure.
Then... he sees this article in the Atlantic:
http://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2013/05/yeast-love-and-fear-death-and-beer/275786/
Yeast: Love and Fear, Death and Beer
Single-celled fungi all around us do so much good and so much bad.
o o o
"Fink said that in biotech applications S. cerivisiae, ordinary bread yeast, is preferable to E. coli not only because it reproduces prolifically, but because it's safe. Even after using it to produce the viral antigens used in vaccines, "you can feed it to animals," he said. Because literally thousands of pounds of yeast can be produced from a small batch, Fink added, "You can get a pretty penny for Saccharomyces" by selling the excess that isn't needed."
So, he's been eating yeast that was used to produce What exactly...?
let me spell it out:
Vaccines
Insulin
Hormones?
oh my...
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