Insight

 I weep the tears for two forgotten years and slightly more it seems

I cry inside to hide the feelings 

in between my cats comfort me

I weep for what and whom we lost 

I weep for opportunity

I hide all this inside myself I don't leak [on screen]

getting by barely but against the wall 

and yet fortunate it seems

but for grace or luck or charm these are lost into this the dream

I worry about all those I know and all I love today

I fear that we will lose yet more 'cuz crazy wins the day

these things I feel they're crushing me

and yet I cannot say to you

I could lose in these uncertain times

I hope I pray but religious not 

besides she doesn't take my calls

But I get up each morning and do it again

and I hope that we do not fall

Red Cross

For the first time in at least 10 years I have given blood.

Worth it.

Like Wow! man... Happy New Year.

Inspired by a phone call by a former roommate of years gone by; 

I spent the "Xmas" holidays in Portland, Oregon visiting Mom, sister and other assorted loose-linked family.  I didn't get to some of my other longest-association friends; but I will be back.

Hopefully, Mom will still be there. 

Flying was an adventure, because the airline (Southwest) had changed my scheduling about 5 times before I actually flew.  They were attempting to manage / forestall more of the disconnections that occured some months past; when the S*** hit the fan because of Covid, weather and staffing issues (perfect storm).

It's like that.

Because my sister likes cheaper alcohol, I was lugging some bottles of bonded beverage in my checked luggage and that overflowed my regular allotment such that I was rather overburdened; but it was well received at destination. (oh my back)...

Somehow, soda pop over ice and a handful of pretzels do not a meal make.

I did remember beef jerky and fruit for the return flights.

Now... back to work?