things I shouldn't let out in polite company

 Some times, my inner voice shouldn't be let out to play. "I'm drunk, it would probably be a good idea to not engage with me at this point, unless you want your head to have a guided tour of your rectum."...

And it continues, the bad debt moves to Washington State

 You know, the person who borrowed money and did not repay it; had shown her true colors; and yet... the two other folk who are involved are no longer interested in talking to her and all three of the folk (including another close friend of mine) will not take her calls.

I still answer occasionally, but I also keep hoping for a miracle that I know will never occur.

Optimist by policy, I think.

Her ex-boyfriend (I think) gave her a one-way ticket to somewhere in Washington, and that is where she sits... on some form of assistance in an apartment/room/house ??? and even secured a car to drive.  Proof positive that she still knows how to work the system; no matter how crazy train the rest of her interactions are.  (Voice... I hear voices I tell you).

I know she's "ill" and some/all of this isn't her fault; but it is hard to forgive and forget when she will acknowledge the debt and still has no plans to pay it back... and never will.

"Hello, my name is ... and I've been grifted"... 
"Hello ..., welcome to 12 steps to not being a mark. (again)."

Life.

Meanwhile, the three roommates with priors (alcohol, drugs) before her most recent interaction are ghosts.  I think that is a good thing.  I keep telling myself that.

*** You know that any conversation I have in my head, playing "what I would say" ... goes badly.***

Always.

Peeking out of my foxhole.

It has been a year.

So, we now have Covid vaccines; and I'm waiting to get one.  Any One.
I've already been exposed several times, and although I never really went down for the count; the only way I would know for sure if I've had it, would be to have an antibody test (which my health care provider isn't giving -- so it would cost me out of pocket).

Meanwhile the PCR tests (I've had two) have been negative.  Since they are more reliable than the rapid test... that indicates that I probably did not have it at the time of testing.  Probably.  I'm not a hyperchondriac; but it would be nice to be able to see my Mom... she's just celebrated her 101'th birthday.  There aren't that many more of them in the cards.

While I'm asking... a f/t gig (job, consult, whatever) would be helpful.  

One of my roommates (the socially dysfunctional one) stopped paying rent, and in California... there isn't a lot I can do about right now.  He's out of cash because he gambles on the stock market... and makes bad choices.  That isn't related to Covid, and I consider the outcome an unfair burden; but with current policy...  and if I contact his family (who have money), that ropes in people who aren't involved and you could make the argument that it isn't fair... except they can afford his  intransigence better than I can. 

Fortunately, I have some remote work, and lots of books to read.