tears and fears and longing

every time I hear that damm Apple commercial "living the life of dreams", when I see a Subaru commercial, when I think about what others have that I never will...

I tear up.  At 57, there's nearly zero chance that I will have kids of my own, and the proxy kids of my ex-girlfriends don't count if they don't want to stay in touch; and who would...

I don't want to be the creepy old guy with cats and nothing else... but mayhaps